Dean to tell Castiel
Um, hey Jensen and Misha? Yeah, we’re going to do that scene where you guys just look at each other for a while. Just — don’t worry about it, it’ll all make sense in a couple seasons. Misha, we just need for you to look at Dean like you’re heart is breaking, and every single second you’re not helping him is like shoving needles in your eyes. Jensen, you look at Misha like if this was a different place and time, you would want nothing more than to grab Castiel’s dirty, stupid trench coat and rip it off his body to see what it’s hidi—- Or, uh. Something like that.
Look, we’re going to play My Heart Will Go On in the background, to set the mood. No, don’t worry, it’s fine. This will all make sense eventually.
Oh, you guys don’t have a problem with playing a gay character, right?
Okay, just making sure.
Glad we’re all on the same page.
#but can we talk about how Naomi had Castiel practice just this#she knew his biggest weakness was Dean#and she knew if anyone would try to stop Cas it would be Dean#and he had to do it so many times to get it just right#can you imagine the complete and utter breakdown Cas had during the first few kills#he probably couldn’t even do it#imagine Naomi having to hand over hand teach him how to kill the person he worked so hard to save#and cas crying the entire time (via octopifer)
I think we all know where the “Cas, I love you.” line was.
I CAN’T HANDLE THIS
Lemme break this down for a hot minute.
-Cas reaches for him, trying to show he menas no harm. Even as Dean is terrified, he doesn’t let it stop him from helping, even though there’s nothing he can say.
-While looking at Dean with such pain in his eyes that the audience realizes the command is broken but Dean thinks he’s toast.
-Castiel holds his face, cups his cheek as gently as he can to get it done. He doesn’t just touch his forehead. He doesn’t clasp his shoulder. He holds his face in one of the most intimate and intense gestures a person can do to another.
-Dean screams and grabs his hand because A) He assumes this is the kill stroke, and then B) the healing probably hurts for a minute.
-But when Castiel is coming toward him, and even with his hand on his face, Dean does not move. He stays there with Castiel. Like he stayed with Sammy when Lucifer was inside him. He will not leave him.
-Cas holds on, still looking pained. He can probably feel how much Dean is hurting, since he can “see inside him”. The guilt can only be acute.
-Dean is shocked to see him still standing there, not having killed him. And still standing there and not flown off in his guilt.
- Castiel says “I’m so sorry Dean” with more emotion on his face than we’ve seen since he was just Jimmy. The polar opposite of the beautiful but terrifying cold detached face he had while going to beat him earlier. And he doesn’t budge. He stays there and takes the pain. He doesn’t look away. He doesn’t even try to get Dean up. He doesn’t distract either of them. He just stands there and means it down to his soul.
-Healing him, and then going off and giving Dean a minute to breathe, takes energy from Heaven and puts Castiel at risk, but he does it anyway. It’s the last thing of the type he does.
-When Castiel goes Dean doesn’t need to call after him. Because for once he knows exactly where he stands.
This scene actually made me cry. It’s the most intense version of a love scene these characters at this moment could possibly have. It breaks them both down to their honest core, with or without certain words being said. It’s existential love.
It’s the faith that Castiel gave Dean, and that Dean used to save Castiel.